People today put a lot of thought into defining their sexual orientation. I've always thought that I could just accept & love everyone as whatever they are & that was enough. As a heterosexual female my only role appeared to be one of support of all orientations.
That's changing though. Because I've changed. I'm still heterosexual but really I'm asexual. I'm 66 and I don't care if I ever have sex with another person again. I don't have negative feelings towards men and sex, I just don't have the desire to participate anymore.
I do, however have romantic leanings. I like flirting with men. I like reading & writing romance (though not actual sex acts).
I discovered there is a category I fall under: ACE
I don't have a lack of libido that needs to be fixed.
As a romantic, asexual woman ditching the term heterosexual to define myself as and embrace ACE, I am whole and healthy.
Fell In Love With A Boy by Joss Stone
(This rendition is good but I must admit I like the energy & feel of it better when the White Stripes do it as Fell In Love With A Girl - maybe I'll just change the words when I sing along. The way Jack White does it - it's a breathing exercise.)
I turned on the youtube 8D Panning ambience video: Mystical Forest Music // Melody in 8D (Audio from EarMonk Mystic Music) as background for writing this.
8D panning is new to me. The D stands for dimensional. I love it. Especially this Mystical Forest one.
This nonsensical bit of whimsy blogpost is about connections. Particularly one connection. Someone I have only met in cyberspace.
I listened to him read a piece he had written earlier tonight. The piece was amusing and thought-provoking and affirming all at once.
The kind of amusing that leaves me smiling later.
The kind of thought-provoking that makes me exclaim - how did he put those things together?
The kind of affirming that makes me relieved to know - there's someone else in this world who thinks like me. I am not alone.
Three words from his piece embedded in my psyche and resonated; "jinx the ease".
First, I'm going to steal that phrase for my writing. Second. I do that. A lot. I jinx the ease in many situations, occurrences, friendships.
I don't intend to. But I am the queen of making things more complicated than they need to be. And of over-thinking.
(Ooh - I've been looking for a reason to buy myself a tiara...)
Anywho - here is a person who laughs with me about smut of all kinds.
And takes the time to put his thoughts about serious stuff like censorship in emails.
And...And...And...
Let me not jinx the ease but rather just say - Thanks T!
This time around with NANOWRIMO I am enjoying all the sprints. And, with some of the sprints come word prompts.
The word prompts are definitely helping me fuel my story. I never would have guessed they would. I can't explain the how yet but I will after some more continued use.
If I want to win Nano - I should be at 11669 words by midnight tonight 11/7.
I'm at 5193 at this point.
I have a one hour sprint to participate in at 4 o'clock today and a two hour sprint to participate in
from 7 to 9 o'clock tonight. I plan on writing in shorter, self-imposed sprints all day.
Will this catch me up? No, but I hope to make some headway today and then catchup over the next few days.
The first sprint from 11:45 to 12:30 I am going to make use of the word prompt 'disgraced'.
The place-keeper for my main character - heroine - started out looking like this:
Today I was writing her getting ready for a date and - I don't know how to do her hair. I could research how and I might get it right or I might get it wrong and it might be disrespectful.
So I changed my place-keeper to Victoria Beckham;
She's offbeat pretty. My version of her has green eyes. I can picture her being the outspoken person I need for my MC college librarian who has to fight a battle against censorship every day. And I know how to do her hair.